Chase has a cardiology appointment tomorrow (Friday) morning at 9:00 AM. It's his first cardiology visit since July 2nd (four months). While I'm super-ecstatic that he's been doing well enough to go four months between appointments, I'm also very nervous about the visit tomorrow morning. There are several reasons for this. First of all, I saw a "new" Chase at his one-year pediatrician check-up. He wanted NOTHING to do with medical stuff. He wouldn't cooperate to check his oxygen saturation, he cried when I put him on the scale to check his weight, he screamed at the top of his lungs when the doctor checked his ears, mouth and pushed on his tummy. Usually he's all smiles through these check-ups, and this time, he wanted nothing to do with it. So I'm very nervous how he'll behave for Dr. Horne. Of course we'll check his height and weight. Then his oxygen saturation. Then blood pressures on both arms and both legs. And an EKG. And the biggie: an echo. What's the likelihood that a 1-year-old will sit still through all of that during what is normally his nap time? I'm guessing not great.
Of course the other reason I'm very nervous about the visit tomorrow morning is that they'll find something. It's been four months since they've looked inside to see how his heart is functioning, how his valves look, if there is any narrowing or other unexpected findings. It's very scary not knowing. And I don't know. It could be an amazing appointment with wonderful news and six months before we'll need to return. Or it could be the opposite. There's no telling. So while I am nervous about the findings, I'm not worried. God already knows. I don't have to know, I just have to trust. And I do trust. Whatever lies ahead for us, God is in control of it all. He already knows, and all He asks of me is to trust Him and follow Him through whatever comes our way.
Am I scared? Yes.
Am I nervous? Yes.
Am I worried? No.
God is in control. All I can do is put my hope in Him and pray for a great report. Please join me in praying for Chase's appointment. Pray that he cooperates and handles things well. Pray that he is easily distracted. ;) Pray that mommy and daddy can figure out the right combination of things to help him get through the appointment while also allowing Dr. Horne and his staff to get all of the information they need. Thank you in advance for your prayers, and I'll be certain to post an update tomorrow!