Saturday, October 24, 2009


I'm truly having a hard time believing the time is almost here!

Today is SATURDAY.

I'm going to be admitted to the hospital TOMORROW.

Chase will be here on MONDAY.

It's all so surreal! I am happy to report that I finally got around to packing my hospital bag today. I guess that's part of what makes an induction so convenient -- I can plan accordingly. And it's no surprise to me that Chase hasn't shown any signs of making an early debut. But now that the bag is packed and I'll be heading to the hospital in less than 24 hours, I think it's time for it to finally settle in that I'm getting ready to have a baby!

Although the future is VERY scary to me and I fear for my son's health and survival in the coming days, I know that ultimately we are all in God's hands and that He has a perfect plan for my family. I'm not at all loving that I will have ZERO control over our circumstances. I'm not loving the fact that I most likely will not be able to hold my son for the first time until the night before his surgery, which very well might not be scheduled for 7 or more days after he's born. I'm not loving being 3-1/2 hours from home -- from our friends, our family, the house we call home. It's really weird to prepare to go to the hospital to give birth to a baby that you know you won't be bringing home with you anytime soon. I almost feel like I'm just going in for a "procedure" of some kind, and then a few months later, I'll get to go back and pick up a baby to bring home with me. It's so strange! I've never felt anything like this before. But I'm truly anticipating that God will do wonderful things over the next several weeks and I'm so grateful I get to witness His work first-hand!

On a totally random note... after a bit of a battle with Amazon and FedEx (they showed my package was delivered to Seattle, WA when it actually was delivered across the street by mistake!) we DID get our cellular signal booster thingy today and it DOES seem to have improved our AT&T signal strength inside the house. Praise the Lord! Now I'm just hoping and praying the signal inside the hospital works!


  1. It is a surreal feeling when you know that your baby will be whisked away shortly after birth. The NICU where Hope was let me hold her a lot before her surgery and I am praying yours will do the same. The nurse had to arrange all the wires and put her in my lap, but there she stayed most of the day.

    Congratulations on the signal boost...glad you will have contact with the outside world (and not just by the window).

    I will be praying for you and your family extra hard in the coming days.

  2. We will be keeping yall in our prayers this coming week. I know it is very hard with things so uncertain right now, but you are right, God is so good! He has prepared you (as much as you feel unprepared) and has chosen YOU to be Chase's mommy. God knows that you are going to be the best mom to Chase over anyone in the whole world, that is why He is blessing your family with him.

    We've been exactly where you are right now, and I know that the next few weeks are going to be extremely emotional and difficult to deal with. I will be praying for God's peace to transcend in your lives and for healing for Chase.

    I'll be checking back for updates!
    Bethany (Emma Kate's mama)

  3. Hey girl! What time do you go to the hospital? When will the induction start? I'm praying for you now and won't stop!! I can't wait to hear about Chase's arrival! I love you guys and am lifting you up to the Lord every time I think about it, which is very often!

  4. Just checking in...please let us know that all is well! Take care of yourself. Love and prayers your way, always! I can't wait to hear all about sweet Chase!


  5. Congratulations! I've been checking your page all day for twitter updates and I see you "had a baby!" I hope Chase is doing well and you are feeling ok! Your family and Chase have been and will remain in my thoughts and at the top of our prayer list! :)