Lately I've been contemplating the future of my blog. I love blogging. I want to do it more often, but for some reason I stop myself from writing about things that I once would have written about without a second thought. These days, I'm torn about sharing our general life (for those of you bored enough to read it), sharing specifically about Chase and his special heart (for all of the heart community who follows us) and sharing my feelings/opinions on things, some of which may certainly upset some of those in my "real life." Then you've got the random things I like to share, such as recipes, shopping finds, and of course pictures and videos of the kids (mostly for our family, all of whom live far away). I don't want to bore some of you readers who are not interested in hearing about the latest advancements in treatments for congenital heart defects. I don't want to lose readers by just posting the latest pics/videos of my kids and their antics. I don't want to upset those in my inner-circle by venting about some of the things I'm currently struggling with.
I'm not a shopping blog. I'm not a cooking blog. I'm not a CHD blog.
I don't know what I am.
I do know that I just want to be free to be honest about my life. I want to share my struggles and seek support from my readers. I want to be funny and entertaining and draw people back to my blog. I want to interact with my readers more and get to know who is out there following these posts.
I don't want to be judged. I don't want to be alienated. I don't want my blog to serve as a replacement for a relationship with me for my family and friends.
So what's next? What do I do now?
I don't know.
I've thought about making my blog private so I can choose who I allow to access it. That way I'll know who my audience is (and isn't) and can write my posts accordingly without worrying who I may possibly upset.
I've thought about starting another blog that focuses only on Chase and his journey with HLHS. This way all of my heart friends can get the latest info on Chase's heart without having to sort through, say, my latest Amazon purchases. I don't mind the upkeep of two blogs, but I know this would result in some people having to check TWO blogs for all of the latest updates on us. :)
I've thought about keeping this blog mostly generic but include info on Chase's heart journey, then starting another anonymous blog (not linked from here) where I can have an outlet to share the thoughts and feelings I can't talk about here. That would result in essentially me talking to myself for the most part, since I wouldn't have any readers initially and no one would know it was me writing it.
There are so many options to consider and I don't yet know how I'm going to move forward. Ultimately I feel I need to make a change of some kind, whether it be big or small.
What do YOU think?
I'd really like to know.